Most of the things I miss I can't even write down here!
No, seriously. Kidding aside, there are very few things I miss as I'm not a materialistic person. I'm more of "keep the money in the the bank" sorts. Which is why I'm happy with whatever I get. But it's rarely that I "get" things so I've even little expectations of things.
Things don't make me happy and sometimes I wish they did. When you don't get satisfaction by being someone's friend, lover, partner, advisor, spouce, etc., where do you go? What do you do? Well, most normal engage in retail therapy or look for "things" outside the relationship. Since I do neither, I write.
So maybe writing is my "things outside of the relationship". When I'm angry at a friend for not being a friend, I write. When I'm frustrated at the world, I write. When I'm happy after watching a good movie, I write.
But before writing, I guess, I dream. Dreaming is so important for me that I never wonder what I would have been like had I not been dreaming my whole life. Dreaming is the one thing that keeps me going on with any and all of the mundane stuff of life. It is my "ship" that carries me across the rivers of despair, happiness, boredom, excitement, waiting etc. And my dreams are as vivid as they come. They rarely make sense when I try to tell them to people. And for some weird reason, I can't tell my dreams to people no matter how hard I try. They just don't let themselves be expressed! Meanwhile, I can express anything and everything in my life.
So I guess I answered my question. Things I miss...I wish my friends dreamed more like me. They could get over their problems really quickly and be good friends and good people. I guess I also discovered the secret to "World Peace"! Voila! Where's my Nobel?
No, seriously. Kidding aside, there are very few things I miss as I'm not a materialistic person. I'm more of "keep the money in the the bank" sorts. Which is why I'm happy with whatever I get. But it's rarely that I "get" things so I've even little expectations of things.
Things don't make me happy and sometimes I wish they did. When you don't get satisfaction by being someone's friend, lover, partner, advisor, spouce, etc., where do you go? What do you do? Well, most normal engage in retail therapy or look for "things" outside the relationship. Since I do neither, I write.
So maybe writing is my "things outside of the relationship". When I'm angry at a friend for not being a friend, I write. When I'm frustrated at the world, I write. When I'm happy after watching a good movie, I write.
But before writing, I guess, I dream. Dreaming is so important for me that I never wonder what I would have been like had I not been dreaming my whole life. Dreaming is the one thing that keeps me going on with any and all of the mundane stuff of life. It is my "ship" that carries me across the rivers of despair, happiness, boredom, excitement, waiting etc. And my dreams are as vivid as they come. They rarely make sense when I try to tell them to people. And for some weird reason, I can't tell my dreams to people no matter how hard I try. They just don't let themselves be expressed! Meanwhile, I can express anything and everything in my life.
So I guess I answered my question. Things I miss...I wish my friends dreamed more like me. They could get over their problems really quickly and be good friends and good people. I guess I also discovered the secret to "World Peace"! Voila! Where's my Nobel?
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